*until the day i die...

I LOVE YOU

2006-11-08T14:58:00.000+08:00

Dear boy,
it's nowhere near yer fault that everything's not going the way we want it to be.
but i'll still be here fer you, like you always are fer me.
thank you fer being there fer me all the time too.
yer love means everything to me.
i love you lots. (:

<3

2006-05-13T16:18:00.000+08:00

i know YOU hate me,
i know YOU do.
i know i let YOU down,
im sorry i do. ):
but one thing is for sure,
is that i love YOU too.
sigh.

-ter`

2006-05-06T13:43:00.000+08:00

deaf to: name - goo goo dolls

do you?
i wont tell no one your name...
sigh

what day is it?
and in what month?
this clock never seems so alive...

ter

2006-04-21T17:53:00.000+08:00

orientation's just over.
somehow i feel that it wasnt as fun as last yr's.
maybe becasue of the eople and stuff.
mich agrees with me too.haha
anyway there was this guy,
he was acting all childish and stupid all the time.
it is so irritating.
and when he cant dance.
he kept telling the other guy that he couldnt dance.
like please.look at yourself before you criticize others pls.
ass.
he was the one i was talking about in my previous post.
seriously, i think he really abuses the previlage to be stupid.
at ben's now.
got practice later at high street.
just spent the whole time gaming here and slacking our asses off.
gotta enjoy before sch starts.
i hope its not going to be like last sem.it really sucked.
i've been feeling a lil down lately.
it sucks.

i was never blaming you for anything.
i just told you to let you know how i feel.
i just want you to talk to me thats all.
nothing more.
i think theres just miscommunication the past few days.
i'm sorry if i offended you in anyway.
dont think that im saying this because you're pissed or something.
i'm not.
this is the way i felt from the start.
i'm not blaming you for anything.
i hope you understand. )<
hope things will get better soon.
if you'd just give me a chance to talk to you.
hopefully soon.
but i want you to know that i'll always be here for you if you ever change your mind about not wanting to talk. (:

-ter`

2006-04-20T01:06:00.000+08:00

deaf to: if only we could sleep tonight - deftones

fuck off please.
just fuck the helll off.
i have to agree with what sam said.
everyone is entitled to being stupid, but some abuse the privilage.

2006-04-12T14:22:00.000+08:00

deaf to: United Live - the time has come

had worship practice last night.
it was great!
besides the fact that we took abt more than an hr to figure out a song.
but it was all worth it.
we'll be doing all United Live songs this sat.
so if you're reading this,
COME FOR SERVICE!!!
it'll be great.
i'll be doing a bass solo!!!
so come down and support me!
hahahaha!
i managed to get it though.
felt soooo good i tell you.
hah
good friday's coming up this week.
public holiday.
sad to say its not during my school term.
but we'll be having service on thurs night.
which is tomorrow night.
weird.
but i still think it was the dumbest decision to take
victoria concert hall for sunday service.
i mean what were they thinking?!
it doesnt even catered to the main congregation.
not even the youth.
i want service on sunday!!!
so im still having my holidays now.
and i've been buming around 80% of the time.
guess i'm fully enjoying my holidays?
see you at service on saturday!
BETTER COME AH!!! (x

-ter`

2006-04-02T01:56:00.000+08:00

i miss YOU!!! come back to me NOW!
*if you're reading this before you come back.
(x HEEE.

2006-03-21T05:15:00.000+08:00

i've got something to say.
DO NOT worry about us right now.
we've got bigger things to worry abt.
i dont even know whats going on right now.
but hang in there.
just want you to know that you dont have to worry abt me.
because they dont know whats the bigger prob.you know.
its obvious.
thats what im unhappy about.
they're not even scraping the surface.
not even near there.
just wait till they find out the truth.
you'll understand.
stop thinking too much and everything will be fine.
be strong,
for yourself, for ME.
please.
i know you can do it. (:
i'll be praying for your physical safety.
thats what im most worried abt now.
abt your safety and well being.
that you dont get hurt physically.
remember.i LOVE you.
dont you dare forget that.
so please.
be STRONG.
love.

-ter`

2006-03-17T03:30:00.001+08:00

do you know it feels?
do you know it feels to miss someone?
do you know it feels to miss someone so badly?
do you know it feels to miss someone so badly that it even if you wanted to call that person to say "i miss you", you knew it was impossible?
im going through that now.
baby i miss you so much.
i really do.
come back to me quick. )<

-ter`

2006-03-17T03:30:00.000+08:00

2006-03-16T14:27:00.000+08:00

it was her birthday on 14th march.now go wish her happy belated NOW! (: happy birthday baby.

2006-03-16T14:26:00.001+08:00

and this.

2006-03-16T14:26:00.000+08:00

we were at east coast. and i seriously love this picture. (x

2006-03-02T20:09:00.000+08:00

deaf to: Mudvayne - Not Falling

here's specially to YOU.
thanks for leaving that really reassuring
previous post when i was feeling really down.
i love you. (:

i can now very proudly declare,
MY PAPERS ARE FINALLY OVER!!!
i feel like i've practically been to hell and back.
hahaha it feels so good i tell you.
like the world is off your shoulders.
it feel good kinda empty you know.
its like when you're studying and you have to study.
you always want to just sit there and stare.
its like practically even better than doing anything
else i tell you.
yeah its weird.
but trust me, when you start studying,
you get so stoned when you rest
that you just want to sit there and stare into space.
you'll even enjoy the peace and quietness.
haha oh well,
i havent spending much time with my bed.
havent been sleeping much.
this semester has like practically the thickest
stack of notes that i ever had in
my 2 yrs in ngee ann.
hahaha its like i dont know man.
i studied so much the past few weeks that
i feel abit stoned.
5 papers ok!
hahah never had it before.
well, 3 was ok.
4 last sem was getting abit stressful.
but 5 this sem?!no no.
anyway i think thats all for today.
later!!!

-ter`

yes, yes, & yes.

2006-02-26T22:00:00.000+08:00

Yes, i do.
Yes, i still do.
Yes, i still do love you.

<3

do you still?

2006-02-26T02:19:00.000+08:00

do you still.?
do you still..?
do you still...?
DO YOU STILL? after so long....sigh

2006-02-23T20:10:00.000+08:00

deaf to:
Casting Crowns - Voice of Truth

exams are coming up soon.
i am currently on my study break this week.
things have been moving very slowly for me.
or maybe abit too quickly.
the week seems to be passing by me like a bolt of lightning.
soon, it'll be fri.which is tmr.
and after, saturday and then sunday.
and then we're back to a whole new week on monday.
i will be having papers consecutively from monday
through thursday next week.
it sucks seriously.
and the worse is i have a paper tmr too.
how am i gonna cope?
it is getting from bad to worse.
feeling down is not gonna help.
but i cant help it.
my weekends are taken up.
sat.youth.
sun.church.a certain someone.
i HAVE to study now.
well, at least i have something to smile abt.
YOU.thanks.i love you.(:
its alright.
im sure He knows my problems.
i pray he helps and answers my prayers.
"but the voice of truth, tells me a different story,
the voice of truth, says do not be afraid"
help me.help me.
im begging you.
i cant take it anymore.
cant wait for this to be over.sigh
im out.

2006-02-13T01:43:00.000+08:00

im back!
and i am glad to say that singapore is not sucha bad place after all.
boarded bus 157 this evening on the way home.
decided to sit next to some malay lady with a bag and a plastic bag.
it seemed like she was having abt of trouble
with the bags as there were a lil too bulky.
when she saw me, she immediatey took up her bags
and put them onto her lap and quickly apologised and gave me a big smile.
that totally brightened up my day.
seriously, typical singaporeans will just give you
a really really black face like they own the whole seat when
you want to sit beside them or something.
and the worse.
they dont smile!!!
well i have to to say that i do try most of the time to smile at whoever.
hoping to brighten up someone's day.
but all they do is just look away when i do smile at them.
how rude is that? at least return a smile!!!
well, of all people.
the most unexpected malay lady in the tudong or whatever you call it,
really brightened up my day.
i think singaporeans shld be more friendly and smile more.
besides just giving everyone around them the typical black face.
its just so wrong i tell you.
it spoils one's day especially when they're not having a very good day
by giving them your good old black face.
thanks alot really.
but we would much prefer a smile from you the next time.
thank you!!!

-ter`

2006-01-25T12:02:00.000+08:00

sometimes when people get pissed,
they love to jump the gun and accuse people.
even when they have to hard evidence to do so.
i think its just stupid and rash.
now looky here.
the tables have turned.
i mean no names were mentioned.
how can you just go about saying that you know
because you know?!
wtf is that suppose to mean?
so are you going to tell the judge,
the defendant is guilty because i know he is,
BUT i have no evidence to prove it?
you know what.screw you. (:
the judge will just throw the bloody hammer or whatever that is at you.
and shuve the wig right up your big fat ass where theres alot of space left.
i mean why do you feel so strongly abt what ppl said??
is it because the description fits the person whom you thought it was about?
so now are you admitting that it IS true?
think about it.
and sometimes saying things once is enough.
you dont always have to keep asking the same question again and again.
sometimes i wonder where your brains are.
in that head or right down there in that big fat ass of yours??
after having spoken to you, i think its the latter.
ok i think thats enough for today.

-ter`

p.s. no sam, im not refering to you. ((:

2006-01-20T11:06:00.000+08:00

this is depressing.
im in sch now and i totally dont feel like going for my credit management class.
stupid penny thong.what a name.
i havent seen her in abt a month thanks to the numerous times shes cancelled class.
which is a good thing
and now i think i have to sit through 4 hrs of her lesson at one go
i dont think i can take it.
its supposed to have started at 11 but im stillnot there.
as i said.NO MOOD!!
and we've got 4 tutorials to finish by the end of the lesson.
i seriously dont know how we're gonna do that.
argh!! i hate sch.
im tired!
my back's aching!
my shoulders!!! ah my body's killing me.
this is what you get for having insufficient sleep.
but i think we'll be getting back our test paper during the lesson.
ok i think i want to go now
but now because i like it.
i just want my marks back to see how well i did thats all.
HEE!!
alrighty then.think i better get going before she marks me absent.
later!

-ter`

Invasion

2006-01-17T21:09:00.000+08:00

*INVASION ALERT*
Hur, now it's my turn you dumb dingadong.
35432132465464531354321321!!!!
You die!
I shall press more buttons tonight!
And you'll go deaf.
Haaaha.
And i love you too, so tonight i shall just give you minor tantrum okay?
15 mins only. (:
LOVE YOU!

<3 you-should-know-too

2006-01-17T16:22:00.000+08:00

i know i've been away for a really long time.
but arent i blogging nowww?
haah just got back from an interview somwhere in jurong
im gonna work!!
and i need cash desperately.
anyways to recap.
christmas was really great.spent the time in church
taking tons of photos
then to deb's to chill the day away.
new year was fun.
caught the fireworks from highstreet.
it has a great view of the whole of city hall.
now arent you all jealous?lol
then had swensens
crashed at ben's til church.
the rest didnt sleep.
but i had my beauty sleep.
enjoyed it anyhow.
sch's started after common test.
and guess what.i got 78 for my business law paper!!
haha and i thought i wouldnt do very well.
apparently according to mr. balalala.
our class did pretty well compared to the other classes.
life has been so great so far.
spending alot of quality time with a certain YOU.
and we can finally go out again without having to worry about anything.
yesss!!!! just like the good old days.
it was and will still be GREAT!
report presentations are coming up next week.
3 presentations in a week.
not bad, it gonna be one hell of a week.
anyways. im always looking forward to my weekends when i can go out and enjoy myself.
ok i think thats enough for today.
peace.

-ter`

2005-12-27T20:46:00.000+08:00

Lum you liang, you'd better start blogging soon.
Wait, NOW.

From: you-ought-to-know-who

2005-12-27T18:59:00.000+08:00

ok this is the best group picture we took.hahhaa and thats me at the corner looking just like a head with no body.hahaa

2005-12-27T18:57:00.000+08:00

these are the pictures that i took with my NEW cam on christmas sunday.had a great time.thanks guys. ((:

2005-11-17T19:25:00.000+08:00

well..nothing much has been happening.
why do you think i havent been updating??
haha ok maybe i am just too LAZY.
yes yes, i see all of YOU out there nooding your heads.
especially YOU!!haha

sch has started.
and its getting pretty tough.
i mean like taking 4 examinable modules??
not a very easy thing to do.
especially when we have to complete the syllabus in 4 months.
hahah
but oh well.
business law, financial planning, credit management
and finance of international trade.
WOW!! so exciting right!!!
hahaha well law's fun.
but it can get quite frustrating at times when you dont really understand.
anyways it was a while ago when i went to
wild wild wet and escape.
yup!! sounds fun now doesnt it.
and i practically spent the whole day with a certain YOU.
running around escape taking the rides til we got bored.
THEN, to wild wild wet.
wah tt was a killer seriously.
hahaha taking all the slides and stuff.
its came across to me as a surprise but i
actually found myself screaming my ass off like an idiot
when we took the samsung slide at wild wild wet.
so like so high ok!!! and i was made to sit facing the side we were going down.
goodness.hahha
yes i know you are laughing at me for being sucha sissay!
but i enjoyed myself.
and im not shy i screamed.
HAHA (x
had bbq after tt.
too tired to eat so went back earlier.
but it was really unforgetable.
the times when i fell flat on my face on the water while trying to dive.
HAHA it was embarrassing.
dont remind me.
i think the lifeguards had a good time laughing at me too.HMMM....

oh and i cant wait for church camp too.
but its like next month after my birthday.
but theres curfew!!!
ah fuck the curfew man.
im gonna enjoy myself and no one's gonna stop me.
alright i think i've had enough of talking.
i dont think anyone's reading or listening to me either.

i just hope that ppl do not bear grudges against me.
i know im not perfect but i do care for you as a friend.
and im hoping you'll get well too.
im sorry if i came across to you as being not understanding.
guess it just wasnt my day either.
just hope things will be alright thats all.
and yes i know you're reading this.
peace.

-ter`

2005-11-16T17:43:00.000+08:00

Terence lum is a lazy bum. (:
He asked me to post fer him, so i shall.

Terence has really unruly armpit hair.
So it's either he waxes, trims, or straightens his hair.
But i bet his mom won't loan him her hair straightener.
I have no choice but be the nice girl that i am- sponsor his waxing strips and help him wax.
WOOHOOO.

And i've got grand plans during church camp.
I shall intrude on his privacy and barge into his room in the middle of the night and jump on him.
I shan't let him sleep either.
Hahaha.

LOVE <3

2005-10-12T20:43:00.000+08:00

ok fine i shall blog.
i dont know what to say really...
works sucks.
working at OCBC bank now.
and i just realised i want to study.
working is so darn boring.
its like you do the same thing over and over and over again.
is life gonna be like this??
i cant take it.
i feel like im just gonna die.
i dont know how im gonna live the rest of my life waking up at the same time every morning,
sleeping around the same time every morning.
seeing the same ppl at work everyday.
its so gonna be a drag really.
dont know how im gonna go about doing it in the future.
aiyah we'll just leave it till then i guess.
and thanks to kerrie for posting my darkest secrets.
so i shall blog.
sometimes i really dont know what im doing with myself.
cant wait to get back to sch.
cant wait to get back to lessons.
hope this coming sem's modules are easier.
although i know its gonna be as packed as ever.
but i guess i've decided to work harder next sem.
so we shall see then.
till next time.
so right now..
my dearest kerrie does not have any right to post anymore of my darkest secrets!!!
hahaha
too bad!!!its gonna be my turn soon!!!
just you wait!! (x

-ter`

2005-10-12T19:37:00.000+08:00

Today is gross fact II.
WOOT.

Terence has a shrinking 3 inch dick.

Don't ask me how i know.
I just do.
HAHAHA.
So don't ever get conned to sleeping wih him without asking him how big his dick is.
He thinks that he'd turn on the women, i emphasize WOMEN, with his *ahem, broad chest.
And he believes that by the time they find out about his 3 inch dick, they'd be too horny to resist.
The women i'm talking about are his much fantasized dominatrix kinda women.
Hurrrr.
NOW you know what goes on in that puny excuse of a brain he has..

So then dearest boy, till you decide to update, TOMORROW i shall post again.
And i don't care, this is now officially my second blog. (:

CHEERIO PEOPLE, till tomorrow, i shall invade.
Oh wait, i won't be invading anymore.
On the account this is my second blog.
Teeheehee. (x

<3
kerrie

Oh, that stupid ass of a boy was too embarassed to let anyone see this.
So he stupidly saved it as a draft.
So me being the nice one, i'm reposting it so that you can amuse yourselves fer a bit.
CHEERS! (x

Gross Fact I

2005-10-11T15:16:00.000+08:00

I cannot find any words that rhyme with LUM anymore.
Maybe like sum, cum, dumb..
I dunno.
But i like ice kachang the best.
Hur.
It rhymes.

Terence likes scratching his mighty hairy ass.

I have decided to post everyday until terence the lummm does.
I'm gonna post gross facts- at least one, on HIM, a day.
HAHA.
Serves you right fer not blogging fer close to a month. (x
Die you!
So the hairy ass is one. *grins
Wait till tomorrow...
This shall be like, my second blog.
HAHAHHA.

TILL THEN!

<3
kerrie

TERENCE LUMMMM!

2005-10-03T11:41:00.000+08:00

TERENCE LUM ICE KACHANG

it rymes.
i know it does. (:
love you, my ice kachang boy!
hahaha.

LOVE <3
kerrie

2005-09-17T23:07:00.000+08:00

thank YOU
only YOU understand what im going through
besides those closest to me.
guess everyone else will just judge me.
too bad for me then. (:
guess im not good enough for everyone else.
guess im the bastard,
was and always will be one.

-ter`

2005-09-17T00:05:00.000+08:00

alright.
its been a while.
today was the last paper.
financial management.
surprisingly i think it was tougher than ief
hahah
like i've been on my books since last week.
studying and studying.
unbelievable?believe it.
hahah i know its so not me to study and all.
but i've got no choice.
so too bad for me then.
well..i had like 4 papers this sem.
like what?
3 papers for the last 2 sems were already quite mind-blowing.
and now 4?!
haha ok im just ranting.
well.i've been practically stuck at home everyday.
and if im not at home, im in sch
sitting for my paper.
and my attachment starts next week.
what a fair world we have.
i dont even get holidays.
and when my attachment ends,
i'll only have like the weekends to enjoy
then i'll be back in sch AGAIN.
ngee ann has like really good planning you know.
hahaha its practically suffering.
but the good thing is that i have to wear formal everyday
I THINK.hahaha
well, im attached to OCBC bank,
what can you expect.
they're quite a conservative bank you know.
haha but its sexy anyway!! (x

anyways just to end off,
this is specially for YOU:
you've got a real friend right here,
stop looking.they'll come.
for now, just be happy you have at least 1.
and dont worry, im not going anywhere.
im sure i've proven it to you a trillion over times already.
so heres ALL MY LOVE!!! ((:

-ter`

2005-09-01T23:00:00.000+08:00

ok im back.
been really caught up with sch work.
going for attachment soon after my papers.
will be working at OCBC bank.
in some consumer section of the bank la.
what the heck man.

so alot of things have been happening.
and they do not like me after all.
its obvious with the whole new BAN man.
sigh.
but thats not important.
the important thing is that we do not get affected by them.
instead of turning our back and running,
we shld come together and work things out.
there will always be a solution to every prob my dear.
sweetie, i just wanted to tell YOU
that i've been enjoying spending time with you.
although theres the new ban,
im sure we'll be able to work around things.
its not tt bad ok??LOVE

anyways i really dont know what to say anymore.
will catch you guys soon.
LATER

-ter`

2005-08-01T23:50:00.000+08:00

im finally back.
sorry havent been very free to blog.
this semester has been so rushed and stressful
totally sucks.
it seems so short.
just after 1 month theres test 1,
then 2 weeks later theres test 2
AND 1 month later is already FINALS!
hahahah anyways forfeited going for my nationals.
thanks to the new set of rules of the federation.
hahaha and i wasnt free on the weigh-in day as well.
hahah its ok.
and i've got tons of projects and assginments to do.
anyways, went for sonicfest the past few days.
quite fun.
good music.
sonicflood was good.
got bored of planet shakers after their 1st performance.
hahaha
had alot of fun just spending time with YOU.
although we didnt get enough time alone.
we still managed to have strawberries with whipped cream what!!!
hahaha its damn kinky la!
BUT we were in the kitchen pigging out ok!!
haha manged to finished more than 3/4 of the strawberries.
fun.
miss YOU so much.
anyways, just wanna apologised for whatever stress i've beeen putting you through and these few days.
i really am very sorry.
i love you.
im sure you know that.
cant wait to see you again my dear.
i'll be missing you in the meantime.
LOVE

-ter`

ker`

2005-07-13T16:29:00.000+08:00

TERENCE LUM IS A LAZY PIG.
HE REFUSES TO POST UNTIL HIS TESTS ARE OVER.
BULLSHIT! (x
And ow, i actually cut myself with the f'cking penknife.
Haha.
Now it's bleeding.
Stupid penknife.
But it's quite fun.
LOL.
Hell, i'm just invading yer blog.

MUCH LOVE. <3

2005-06-18T23:21:00.000+08:00

heyo ppl!!! at least im starting to update my blog a little more frequently.
hahah anyways just got back from my family's fathers' day celebration.
and im feeling like shit.
thanx to the XO that my uncle gave me.
stupid shit.
its so strong and it tastes like shit.
im quite determined not to drink it again.
EUCK!! *spits
i think i'll just stick to beer and other drinks.
hahah XO is not for me now.
its for old men!! and im not old!
hahahah anyways was playing mahjhong with the guys yesterday.
we played through the night.
then slept for a while b4 getting up and heading down to town.
met the rest of the gang.
slacked til about 645 before going for dinner.

this is to my special someone,
at camp now.
i really miss YOU so much.
of all times your phone had to die today.
and i still dont know what happened.
i know it was raining very heavily and everything was wet.
oh oh!! and you lost your underwear!!!
OMG so cute!! XD
thats my baby!
anyways i know you can take care of yourself.
so i need not worry bout anything.
LOVE you!! ((:

will be having youth camp this coming fri.
cant wait.
im gonna kill someone there.
hahah i think you might know her!! *indian accent
LOL
anyyways im the president of the whole camp and im still expected to play the games.
what is this!!!???
ok but im hoping its gonna be a real success.
the crew have been putting in alot of effort into planning.
meetings after meetings.
countless phone calls and stressing periods for me especially.
makes me just wanna pull out my hair sometimes.
hahaha ok im actually quite tired.
gonna get ready to sleep
as i didnt get enough sleep last night.
ok then.
will update soon enough alright??
LATER!

-ter`

BOO. -ker

2005-06-13T15:37:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling bored.
Don't really feel like updating my blog.
So here i am!
I know once you read this,
You're gonna start questioning me.
But i don't care!
SERVES YOU RIGHT FER WANTING ME TO DIE OF SUSPENSE.
It's fair really.
Wanting me to die in exchange fer intrusion of blog privacy.
Fair indeed.
You prolly won't get to read this until 10 later on.
HAHA.
But i still want my chocolates okayy.
MUST MUST.
Until then,
Much love!

ker`

2005-06-11T18:23:00.000+08:00

it sure has been a long time since i updated.
so sorry to those who were dying to find out bout me.
hahahah oops!
anyways life has been fine or me.
training every week
getting tougher each week.
but im still hanging in there trying to pull through.
anyways im lacking alot of sleep,
thanx to my early classes and late nights.
hahah YOU!!! i miss you so much!!!
yeah back to the topic.
not enough sleep basically.
so much so that i had a pimple outbreak.
hahaha
anyways i havent been understanding the past few lessons of financial management,
finanacial market and services and International econs and finance.
omg the teachers teaches us as if we knew what he is talking about.
and its so confusing!
oh yes but according to huimin we just have to do tutorial and you'll know.
which i havent been doing la.only for 2 subs la!!!
hahah im too lazy.
better start pulling up my socks anlready.
or else im so gonna fail man.
my life has been flying pass me.
time isnt waiting for me.
its already the 3rd week of sch me noticing.
so much to catch up
so much to do
where to find the time?

and YOU have to stop thinking too much about what others say about you.
so what if everyone's gonna hate you?
you've got me!!!
dont forget that,
or i'll smack your head ah!!
i mean whats over is over.
so lets not brood over it anymore.
a new chapter of your life has started already,
so continue the journey and stop flipping back and looking at the past ok?
pls, it really hurts me to see you like this.
its like im asking myself is there nothing i can do?
i wanna help.
i really want to. )):
let me help pls!
am i really that useless to you??

gotta be in church by 8 tmr.
seriously dont know how im gonna wake up in time.
and i have to bring my bass along too!!
and i have to dress up for SOMEONE too.
now cant you wait to see me baby??
hahahaha!!!
alright then.
will be going out for dinner soon.
im soo hungry!!!
and if YOU see this, i hope you feel better.
i'll be waiting for you to contact me.
-love
ok then gotta go now.
catch you guys later!!

-ter`

2005-05-19T20:43:00.000+08:00

sorry, havent been really free to update the past few weeks.
maybe its because im too lazy to.
ok anyways,
for the past few days,
i've been in sch helping in the BA orientation.
haha and its fun!
meeting ppl in the same course and other diff business courses.
yeah meeting the freshmen and crapping with them is also fun.
like showing them around and telling them more about the sch and stuff.
its quite interesting considering the fact that i missed last yr's orientation.
its all fun now.
hahah so yes i've started training for nationals.
and im trying my best to run every other day that im not training.
cardio is also impt to cut down my weight and help in my movement.
hahah still got lots to improve on.
but past few trainings have been very good with reasonable amt of improvement.
((:
have been going out with YOU the past few weeks.
and im enjoying myself greatly.
thanx for all the times that you've been with me.
taking all my crap and nonsense.
if it was anyone else,i think i would've been murdered a long time ago.
hahaha
so tmr's the last day of orientation.
and they'll be having performances and a beauty pageant for the freshies!!!
hahah its time for us to enjoy!
was in sch at 720 this morning.
so early!
and preparation for the orientation has been quite tough,
although i have to say i slacked all the way la.
but its was fun being mummified and carried around the hall like an idiot.
hahaah!
really enjoyed that part.
ok life has been very simple and entertaining for me.
at least i dont stay at home and let my brain just rot.
sch's reopening next week.
its like so quick!
time passes so fast!
oh and im having a youth camp which im in charge of in june.
its gonna be a pasir ris costa sands.
cant wait for that one too.
i can feel myself getting ready to go crazy already.
hahaha i dont want sch to start again!!!
im enjoying myself soo much i dont feel like studying now.

was on the way home from training on tues,
when i saw val at the bus stop,
she didnt see me.
so i just walked up to her and she was soo happy to see me.
i havent seen her in like dont know how long.
anyways i stopped to chat for a while and reached home late.
hahaha ok ok i think thats enough for now.
pls do tell me if you guys want me to update soon k.
i'll catch you guys later then.
SEE YOU!!

-ter`

1 week training break.4th week of holidays

2005-05-06T02:49:00.000+08:00

missed training the whole of this week.
mon was a public holiday.
was supposed to go yesterday but it was raining,
so lazy to go.
went over to mark's hse to slack instead.
LOL
its been quite a while since i've updated.
i've been at mark's the past few days.
spending time with the guys.
FUN!!!
doing stupid things and laughing at ourselves.
this is the life man.haha
anyways i've got plans later today.
going out with YOU.
cant wait!
i cant sleep!!
too excited.
ahahah! i know i sound stupid but i cant help it. XD
anyways i havent finished up my shoe yet.
seriously no time and too lazt at the same time.
hah anyways nothing much has been happening.
besides the fact that i've been up very late for the past week.
hahaha enjoying myself.
holidays are really a time to rot.
but i dont want them to end!!!
gonna be yr2 already.
damn.
and my time table's out.
most of my classes are all in the morning!!!
haha die.must adapt to the new morning lifestyle already.
hahaha anyways im supposed to do orientation for BA.
but i havent come up with anything yet.
im so freaking dead.
hahaha!!!
anyways i think i'll be having a gig on the 19th on june at the Third place.
think its around outram.
but i suddenly lost the interest to jam anymore.
f'ck.
i wanna play street all the way!!
oh and did i add??im declared bankrupt as of today.
hahaha spent so much cash.
but its ok.
i've got my headporter black beauty pouch!!!
burn that ok!!!
im so proud.
hahaha
ok will update soon enough.
till then.
LATER!

-ter`

customizing process

2005-04-26T17:11:00.000+08:00

havent been up-dating.
too busy to.
ok fine too lazy too.
lol
anyways past few days have been ok for me.
many things happening around me.
but i cant seem to remember all of them.
hahaha too bad!!
yup in the process of customizing my shoe now.
hahah i just realise how tiring it is just to get your degsign up.
drawing, tracing, editing, thinking of how to put it onto the shoe.
wahhh!!!! long process.
but lucky im almost half way through it.
coming to the difficult part now.
gotta draw the design onto the shoe so that i can paint it.
wtf.
i seriously dont know how to go about doing it.
i've finished designing, and editing already.
all in less than a day!!!
hahah i'm so proud of myself.
LOL.
anyways!!! i know YOU've been through alot the past few days.
rough times and all the pain and suffering.
hang in there alright!!!
things are gonna be fine!!! time heals all wounds.
and oh yah i forgot, theres still me here for you!!!
hahah you can count on that!! XD
anyways i've yet to smack your head and kick your ass.
i know i can be ass at times but it was for your own good.
think about it.
oh and i enjoyed spending time with you.
FUN!!! hahah oh yes!!!
we still have fri and sunday!!!yay!!!!!
ah screw it im sounding like a child already.
im still contemplating whether to go to mitch's hse for a while.
im tired and too lazy to move.
haha and its such a pity tt you dont have your phone!!!
i've got so many things up my sleeve la!!
hahaha evil thoughts.LOL
had training yesterday.
just realised that nationals are nearing already.
better start training and pushing harder.
IVP screwed cause of me.
i've learnt not to blame anyone but myself.
sigh.
alright then i guess thats all for today.
gonna go do my own stuff now.
catch you guys soon!
later!

p.s. to scandaLeus, if you're reading this, pls stop playing guessing games with me la!!wah lau i can guess anymore!!too tired and lazy to guess already!hahahah IDIOT.

-ter`

training injury

2005-04-20T21:44:00.000+08:00

these past few days have been ok for me.
bumming around at home,
recovering from my injury.
yes my neck injury.
fell during training on monday.
damn it.
it is so not funny.
painful.
learning a new slide in turning kick.
then so happened my friend was standing at the spot with his leg all wet
thanx to his pespiration.
so after he stood back.
i came in and tried again.
since the floor was wet with his pespiration,
undoubtedly,i slipped and fell.
was supposed to land on my ass and arms.
but i fell too fast and hard,
and the impact forced my head all the way back and i hit my head on the floor.
the sound of my head hitting the floor was loud.
everyone around were shocked.
lol
so my neck was forced back too,
and now i have a stiff neck.
ouch.
side effects of the fall.
hahaha but its ok.i learnt my lesson.
its stupid la.
and theres a bruise on my head too.
haha quite painful when i lean my head back on anything now.
so have to be more careful.
sigh
i miss YOU.havent spoken to you since last night.
i need to crap la!!!hahaha
but nvm i'll be seeing YOU on fri so its ok.
i can wait.
anyways i have training tmr.
waiting til tmr morning to see if my neck is good enough attend training.
cause i cant really turn it or strain it now.
or else it'll hurt like mad.
hahah but im used to this kinda pain already.
doesnt really affect me that much.
i still go out as much,
play as much and rock even harder!!
hahahaa
ok im crapping already.damn
anyways met hendi today.
his bape star shoes are dope!!!
and his jeans!!my goodness.NICE!
anyways chatted a while at peninsular plaza before heading home.
shi rong, jerome and mitch is planning to go to hong kong.
LOL
dont know if they can even make it.
still planned to go concept shop there.
hahaha
anyways i just bought a pair of adidas superstar 35th anniversary i love tokyo
edition today.
cheap!!!!
hahaha and its a dope shoe too.
finally! another shoe for me to thrash
hahah cause adidas's really durable.
haha
anyways thats all for now.
will update soon.
see you guys soon!!
later!!! XD

-ter`

2nd week of holidays

2005-04-15T11:13:00.000+08:00

just got up.
had stamina training yesterday.
my goodness i almost died.
now my whole back is aching.
plus my legs too.
ever getting up from bed is a chore.
haha
had non-stop training for about 2hrs straight.
LOL
at least i managed to go thru the training without dying.
hahah feel better that i didnt give up. XD
well life has been ok for me these past few days.
went to malaysia with the guys on mon i think.
haha came back at like past mid-night.hahha
it was quite fun.
and i realised that the street scene in malaysia is BAD.
and i mean real BAD.
hahaha there isnt one real legit,genuine good or pair of shoes sold there.
all are fake..
and im starting to appreciate singapore now.
hahah at least we still can get adidas's 35th anniversary shoes here.
they cant even find one pair over there.
thats how pathetic it is.
i feel so sad for the street players over there.
hahah
i'm guessing these few weeks to be quite busy.
im helping in my sch's orientation.
haha and you ask y?
i dont know either.
its quite fun la.
can get to know the freshies.
alright im getting tired already.
need to go take a rest.
supposed to go out today.
but someone is so screwed tt she cant even call me.
hahaha its ok.
i shall just continue waiting.
alright then.
LATER!

-ter`

1st week of holidays

2005-04-08T14:15:00.000+08:00

today is fri isnt it??haha
i've lost track of my days already..
this is bad.hahah
have been wasting my life away practically.
play play and nothing but play.haha
this is what i call life.
haha for the past few days,
my brain cells have been depleting quite rapidly.
thanx to my handphone,
which i've been placing beside my head while on the phone with my bestest partner.
hahahah YOU la!!! my 24hr hotline.
its ok.i hasnt closed down yet.hahha
and she fell asleep in a record timing of 1 minute folks!!!
i think she shld go try out for world record of time taken to fall asleep.
hahha stupid.
anyways i havent been sleeping much the past few days.
i think i've become a nocturnal animal.
haha sleep in the day.
go play at night.haah
its quite fun you know..
just partying the whole night and stuff.hahaa
well life has been quite fun and exciting for me lately.
found out alot of good news and good things that might happen me.
YES!!!australia!!!woohoo!!!hahahaha
hahah and you,
you say you read my blog to find out more about my life?
i dont see why you still care when you even bothered to block me on msn.
i seriously wonder why.
i dont talk to you online.
so why do you have to block me?
are you tt sore about it that you dont even want to see me online??
*sigh
i pity you.
anyways you're no longer in my life.
this is gonna be the last thing tt i will write about you willingly.
you've been a great help in my life.
screwing it up.
helping me realise im blind.
and teaching me to open eyes bigger.
if it wasnt for you,
i would still be the big idiot i used to be.
so thank you so much.
but you have to be out of my life. :))
thats all for today folks.
this is me, Out.

-ter`

papers over! holidays

2005-03-31T03:13:00.000+08:00

my last paper is finally over!
i can feel the stress and weight being lifted from my shoulders.
theres goes the burdens.
but now what i have to worry about is the results.
hahah how will i do??
reasonably well i hope.
i guess i studied quite hard.haha
anyways met val and sadee in town today.
walked around for a while before sandee had to leave.
so dropped by val's place and went back at 1130.
anyways its about time i spend time at home.
guess for next few days i'll be spending at home to rest and love my hse.
hahah gotta catch up on my sleep
and post exams activities like customizing my shoe and stuff.
hahaha cool shit man.
but the impt thing is tt i need cash!!
how can i do anything without cash?!
haha anyways can you like msg me or something when YOU read this pls?
got some updating to do.
hahahim getting tired already..
still cant accept the fact that the exams are finally over.
im gonna be year 2 already!
omg tts damn fast.
haha and joyce kept laughing to herself after the paper,
cause she just couldnt accpet the fact that we're gonna have holidays till may.
hahah tts abt 2 months?
guess so.
alright then.i think its about time to hit the sack already.
catch you guys soon!
later! XD

-ter`

last paper poa 2pm

2005-03-29T19:02:00.000+08:00

yes!!finally business management and econs are over!
1 more to go!!!
1 more!poa and im ending at 4pm tmr..
cant wait..
and YOU!!
of all times you dont appear ah!
never mind la.at least i got the time to study,
instead of talking to you..
if not i will fail.
hahaha
do you know how bloody f'ckin much i miss YOU!!???
idiot..what happened pls.
update update.
im gonna be free!
yr 2, im coming!!!
needa to rest b4 i start studying again.
oh and before i go,
to anonymous,
seriously..i know who you are.
you shld know better not to piss me off.
dont make me mention your name and make me look you up myself.
i would really appreciate it if you'd just leave me alone.
and stop making it look as if i have enemies.
cause i dont!never liked making enemies.
if you want to hate me.
go ahead im not stopping you, you bitch
dont make me take my bstats textbook and smack you in the face with it.
cause at this time.
it's getting oh so tempting to do so.
your compliance will be greatly appreciated by me.
thank you. :))
later!!

-ter`

after 10 days

2005-03-21T01:44:00.000+08:00

i know i havent been up-dating.
bet y'all missed me right!!
and dying to read my next entry.
HAH! i knew it!!!
hahaha ok im just playin' with y'all la..
anyways i've been rather busy the past 10 days.
hahah lazy to blog,
study?class?
chilling with my friends.
and just mainly hanging around.
anyways nothing much to update abt la.
just tt i got a new iphoto last week.
its an ipod with a colour screen from which i can view photos from.
and it has a 30GB capacity.
wahahah and i got a new nike sb dunk hemps cascade blue.
nice!!
i think it was quite a while ago la.
but i didnt tell you all abt it la.
anyways i got a new pair of zoo york cross nike blazer high just now.
wahahah its almost brand new ok!
just tt its abit dusty tts all.
a little cleaning will do the job. :))
im happy.hahahah
anyways went for planet shakers yesterday with the youth at Pasir ris.
was supposed to meet YOU first but there was a change of plans..
you know what happened.LOL!
lucky i just left my hse!!
sorta had a feeling tt it would happen.
haha anyways its so funny la.
YOU ah! can stop copying me not!?
i said they sounded like simple plan first ok!!
ok maybe we both said it together.lol
but still! you better respect your elder and stop copying me!
waahahahah you know i still love YOU!!
oh got afew new tees as well.
mostly brand new but cheaper than retail price.
anyways bumped into val and sandee opposite bugis at C.A.N. cafe.
tt place is cool.
but just that they always play the wrong songs.
atmosphere is there,
they've got the drinks and stuff but wrong music.
more like a place to chill.
and beside it was a pub playing all the r&b songs la.
so we were like "eh the pub like more happening leh.."
hahaha stupid la.
watched Son of the Mask on fri night as well.
it was kind of a waste of money la.
too much animation in the show made it damn disgusting.
maybe its just my taste.
went jamming after tt.
and i've come to a conclusion tt mitch and shi rong can work quite well together.
one can play rythm and the other can solo.
what best is tt they can exchange roles in the middle of the song.
GODLY.its just amazing how they can communicate so well when its damn noisy.
so i was sitting in the middle playing bass btw the both of them.
and like half way through our almost 15-20min song,
i didnt know who was playing what.
shi rong busted some rhandy rhoads solo,
then came mitch with his super fast shredding skills followed by finger tapping.
the speed tt he was going at was rather amazing.haha
good good.
at least i know i've got good musicians to cover my lousy skills. XD
wahahha
anyways reached home at like 4 plus 5 cause we went for some food at chua lan jiao's hse.
hahah
anyways tt what has been happening the past few days.
im having my study break for this week.
then it will come my finals the next week on mon, tues and wed.
then im FREE!!
so if YOU are bored, you can call me!!!
i'll be super free to entertain you.wahhah
alright then.thats about it.
its rather late now.
catch you guys soon.

-ter`

2005-03-11T22:25:00.000+08:00

how do you guys find this pic?? suddenly had the inspiration to take tons of pics.i know im a narcissist.is that how you spell it?oh yah scroll right to see the whole damn pic man.my stupid box is too smal for my face! lol! wahahah XD

gay IAC report

2005-03-04T23:51:00.000+08:00

i just realised i havent been updating.
freaking tired man,
slept only about 1.5 hrs last night.
was rushing the report for IAC,
and i managed to finish up.
lucky man.
our dear micheal fell asleep while doing the powerpoint presentation.
and in the end,
our teacher didnt use it.
so it means i did all the work.but nvm la.
it was last minute work,
so just give abit of lee way.
haha im getting a new sb dunk!!
hemp baby blue!!
hahaah getting tmr man.
for like 170.
freaking cheap la!
hahah cant wait man.
and i dont really see ppl wearing it around leh.
not once.
hahah ok im just crapping.
but isnt tt what my blog is for??
ok ok ok!!!
anyways what happened to YOU??
you werent online yesterday.
and at this kinda time,
i dont think you will come online.
contact me asap??
wanna know what happened.
anyways the past few days have been boring.
going out with the guys tmr.
gonna chill maybe?
shit man ok la actually i havent been doing anything interesting lately..
so i really dont have anything to blog on.
hahaha anyways final tests are coming up soon.
gotta buck up and start revising already.
and our holidays are much longer now,
like i think 7-8 weeks of holidays,
must better than the last break that we had.
that was only like 3-4 weeks on la.
so short.
and it passed in just a blink of an eye.
crap ok im getting carried away.
sorry!!! XD
catch you guys later!

-ter`

car accident

2005-03-01T23:37:00.000+08:00

i think today is my unlucky day.
on the way home in the bus,
i feel and unfortunately my handphone was in my hand.
so i had no choice but to use it to break my fall.
and its scratched quite badly.
damn it.
and then on the way back in the car,
my idiot decided to bang into my dad's car when i was sleeping.
heard my mum scream first,
then as i was opening my eyes,
the idiot banged into us.
aparently he was going quite fast and he didnt stop when he saw us.
so our car is damaged quite badly now.
we had our right of way and he had to giv way to us.
but tt idiot didnt.
so yeah..he banged into us,
he's quite young you know.
and damn it his gf is damn hot.
maybe tt was why he wasnt watching the road.
wahahah naughty naughty!
anyways had no class in the morning,
so went for econs lect at 3.
and our dearest erica and denise didnt want to go!
i mean i had to go la.
i came to sch specially for tt lect.
so i had to go.
anyway my tutor was lecturing.
so it was only right tt i went.
anyways he was damn lame la.
he kept telling jokes.
so he took 2 hrs to finish about 3-4 pages of notes.
wah lau!
haha anyways overall it wasnt tt bad.
ok tmr supposed to get a cap with mike.
he wants to go get a pair of slippers.
his last pair is somewhere in the jungle near bukit timah.
wahaha stupidd ass went hunting and got caught in quik-sand.
is tt how you spell it?
haha
alright i think tts all.
i'll update when im free next.
see you! XD

-ter`

the lost.

2005-02-28T21:48:00.000+08:00

i know i havent been updating lately,
been quite busy la.
anyways IVP turned out to be the worst day of my life.
i was supposed to win!
but the judges switched my score at the end of the match.
causing me to lose.
you ask why?
beats me.
anyways i've had my fair share of complaining already.
and i'll most prob be going for nationals to try again in aug.
no way am i giving up man.never..

went to celebrate nelson's birthday after ivp.
didnt come back til 5 the next morning
and i had to get up for church at 8.
haha i know i almost died.
then spent the whole day doing nothing.didnt get enough sleep
because i had to study for econs today.
the test was ok,
although i did the last ques wrongly but its ok.
i've learnt to take things gracefully.
and not to always look at bad side.
look on the bright side!!
same goes to all those who didnt do as well as expected for Os.
dont take it too hard.
it might be God's will that you dont do tt well and go somewhere you dont wanna go.
but He has a plan for everyone..trust me he does.
just have faith and follow wherever life takes you.
dont worry about whats gonna happen
cause God's behind the wheel.

ran into val and sandee today,
shit man they caught me having a break with my friends.
haha val said i looked damn pale.
apparently i havent had enough sleep.
and i still had to sleep.
well its about time i spend some time with you already!
i miss you so much!
same goes for sandee!

argh!
somehow i feel life's so boring.
doing the same thing everyday.
study.home.sleep.eat.
is tt all?
and when i wanna go out,
its either i dont have enough cash with me or im too tired.
lol.

oh yah!
im sorry i couldnt take a cab home with you today denise!!
so sorry!!ahaha cause i didnt feel like going home.
so headed down to my granny's place to slack.
i'll make it up to you..somehow.
wahahah!

anyways i havent been talking to YOU lately.
what happen to you la pls.
MIA in my life la.wheres my buddy gone to?!
anyways final exams are coming in about a month's time.
gotta get ready for them man.
hahah alright then..its about time i stop blogging already.
this is me, Out!

-ter`

day before IVP

2005-02-25T23:35:00.000+08:00

omg im getting quite nervous,
its gonna be sat soon.
in like 40 mins time!!
ahhh!!! ok ok calm down
i know i can do it..
i have to do it..
i MUST!!

anyways had POA today.
it was rather managable considering the fact tt i studied for about 2 hrs?
nice one man mike.
he happily copied from our friend.
then after the test,
i told him that the questions were in different order.
as in the question numbers werent exactly the same...
good game for my brother michael.
wahahah!! stupid idiot..
deserve to be slapped.
anyways before i forget.

HAPPY ADVANCE BIRTHDAY NELSON!!
hahah bros for a long time already ah..
i wont forget your birthday man.
you better nt forget mine too.
lol!!

then next monday,
i have an econs test coming up.
im giving up alot of my studying time to compete for ivp.
thats y i have to at least win something man.
or else i'll be soo fucked..
hahaha

oh i figured that alot of ppl are actually very big mouths.
they told me that they wanted to come to support me for ivp,
and they back out last minute.
so im kinda not expecting anyone to turn up except for chan ho.
he's words are reliable.
thanx bitch.i really appreciate it.
anyways beside all these,
my life has been pretty normal.

to my friends in sch,
you all have made sch fun for me.
singing "think of me" in the canteen with denise.
wah she rocks man.
just cant hit the high notes la.
having constant breaks with my buddies mike and erica.
watching them fight is quite entertaining.
damn funny.
and most imptly,
meeting new ppl.
thats the good part of mixing with the right grp of ppl.
well, i have to be happy in sch la.

anyways for all of y'all who are taking your O level results on monday,
all the best man.
as long as you know you did your part,
let God do the rest.
God only helps those who helps themselves.
and you all must have faith.
"faith the size of a mustard seed can move mountains"
powerful quote man.
just believe..
once again..
ALL THE BEST!!! XD
catch you guys later!!
wait for news about ivp!

-ter`

last ivp training

2005-02-24T20:59:00.000+08:00

yesterday was the last official training for IVP.
its gonna be this sat.
starting at 8.
fights will commence at 1.
pattern teams will be competing from 8-12,
nothing much to see there anways.
so lets get down to business,
my fight starts at about 3-4.
time cannot be confirmed.
we will be competing at NTU sports hall.
and my first oponent will either be fron NTU or ITE.
this is soo bad..
i am determined to win the first round.
i have to win,
i'm gonna show everyone that age does not matter in a fight,
its the skill.
oh yah my sch's cheer-leading team will be at NTU competing too!!
wahh so can go and watch Magnum Force man.
i tell you,
the girls are HOT HOT HOT.
waahahha!!!
anyways heard tt you wanna become a butch?
HAH!
i thought you wanted to be a passive.
what a joke.
its a pity you didnt become a clown.
hahah i thought you wanted a butch gf?
why?
realised tt no one wanted you,
thats why you decided to become a butch yourself?
wahahah!
anyways you're disgusting la,
what your own blog?
yes you can contradict yourself on your blog,
go ahead man you idiot,
i'll just stand aside and laugh at you.
there's only one word to describe you.
DUMB.
you say you're independent?
then why do you always complain about your guys not having enough cash? :)
and you are sooo unoriginal ok.
it seems that almost everything i see from you,
it's always ripped off from someone..
hahah like your friendster bulletin and now your blog.
this is dumb dumb dumb.
ok i shall not bother about unimportant stuff suchs as you,
i need to concentrate on ivp.
its way more important than you.
haha anyways today had BCA retest.
so stupid la..
didnt even study.
and i have a POA test tmr.
and a econs test on monday.
this sucks man.
no time to study over the weekend.
but hope i at least get a medal to make up for it..
then i'll be happy.
it has been a busy week for me..
so rush.
and the weather is damn bad.
but fortunately it rained today.
FINALLY!!
and where have YOU been?
i miss YOU so much!
dont know how to msg me la!
idiot!
alright then..
i've said enough.
Out.

-ter`

confessions

2005-02-21T02:20:00.000+08:00

these are my confessions...
ok so you said that i have many flaws in me.
well first things first,if you really want it.
im sorry.
im sorry for being a bastard.
im sorry that i have countless flaws.
but despite all these,you were still with me.
and that'll mean tt you could take my bastard-ness,
and flaws. so why are you making so much noise only now.
im not a punk.
whether you want to perceive me as one or not,
that's totally up to you,
because everyone is entitled to having their own opinions.
and that includes of what i think of you too.
i know i had secret crushes,
but you have to know that i am a normal guy,
one that likes girls and not guys. :))
yes i might have fantasies,
but the important thing that you have to know is that i didnt turn it into reality.
thats because i am faithful and i did not wish to hinder or relationship
because it meant alot to me.
i also didnt want to make you feel the way you make me felt
when you openly tell others about other guys that you want and cannot get
right in front of my face.
it justs showed how much we meant to you.
and i didnt complain at all ok.
i just told you nicely that you have to think about my feelings too.
simple as that.
yes you can state all my flaws and bad stuff about me,
about how bastardised i can get,
well for everyone elses' sake,
i wont list out yours.
about me deserving your respect?
no one deserves any respect.
respect is earned.
and im not planning to earn any respect from you because
by the things you did to me in the past,
you didnt earn any from me.
dont regret being SO nice to me,
because you were never nice to me.
again, i refuse to stoop down to the level you are at by listing how you werent nice to me.
i know i dont deserve anything good.
no one deserves anything.
and im a christian.
and you hate christianity and God,
so that'll mean i'll be seeing you in hell, from heaven. :)
it seems that your friends dont know anything by just reading my blog entry.
because they obviously dont know what actually happened in the past.
at least my friends know the whole story.
i told them myself.
did you? including the way you treated me? :)
yes, you can say that i'm a good for nothing now.
why would i want to work when i know my parents can support me financially?
working now will be a waste of my time,
and it'll affect my studies.
and if you say that you're "happily living in my own",
then why are you blogging this entry to complain?
arent you supposed to be "happily living" in your own?
im also very glad to hear that you already are out of my way.
and last but not least.
i think you should buck up on your english too.
because your points in your entry have been contradicting each other alot.
and i refuse to list them out.
im not going to stoop down to your level to do that.
im better than that.
and thank you so much for your constructive feedback on me. :)))
Later!

-ter`

2005-02-17T22:45:00.000+08:00

im damn freaking tired..
nows not the time to piss me off man.
i've got an injured tigh.
some fucker knee-ed my tigh during our sparring match.
bastard.
y did i have to get him?
now i cant train tmr..
i cant even walk properly to begin with.
im just wondering when it'lll heal.
f'ck.im quite cheesed off already.
the fact tt ivp's next sat and i cant train now..
is FUCKED UP.
you bastard.
you're lucky you're not my oponent.
or else i would've not bothered about my injury and killed you.
argh!!!
and my toes!!!
what happened to them?
their swollen for f'ck sake!!
omg what happening??
i can see my goal flying further and further away from me already..
*sigh
and im damn tired.
for the 1st time in a long time,
my muscles are aching from training.
got bruises and wounds all over me.
i hurt all over!
it takes alot of effort to just walk.
*sigh
i miss YOU already.
where are you??
i need someone to talk to.
not someone tt is soo childish..
you know who my dear.
i miss valerie too.
are you all coming to support me or not?!
no TRYING.
its either a YES or NO.
its alright i'll understand if its a no.
i'll understand even more if its a yes.
i'll just kill you a little lesser thats all.
wahahaha.
oh and i almost fell alseep during dinner.
soo tired la.
too lazy to even take my own food.
well..this sat's weigh in for ivp.
im taking breakfast and a light lunch tmr.
then my next meal will be after weigh in on sat.
yeah im ready man.
alright im dying already man.
catch ya guys later.
out..

i walk a lonely road, the only one

that i have ever known,

dont know where it goes but its only me and i walk alone.

i walk this empty street, on the boulevard of broken dreams..

when the city sleeps, and i'm the only one and i walk alone,

i walk alone i walk alone..

-ter`

2005-02-15T23:47:00.000+08:00

and i think i have small eyes..wahahah!!

ok so after training yesterday,
went over to val's place.
gave her a rose..
and it was the first rose of the day for her.
you shld've seen the look on her face,
she was sooo happy!!
*sigh
anyways we chatted for a while,
then went to watch the grammy awards.
then left her place at about 12.
hahah i refused to leave,
wanted to watch the grammy awards la.
i was kinda addicted..
lol
anyways yeah we took pics,
its been a longggg time since we took pictures together.
trust me it was long.
its either i dont see her for a long period of time,
or when she wants to take,
i refuse to take.
hahaa but she still forced me to take afew with her yesterday.
hahah anyways im soo tired.i've got training tmr.
and training is extended to 3 hrs instead of 2.
so now its from 530-830 or 9
wtf..
we're gonna die man.
anyways for all of y'all out there,
IVP is on the 26th and 27th or feb at NTU,
i'll definately be fighting on the first day,
2nd day will be if i get into the finals or something..
i really hope i can at least bring something back home man.
im dying for it la..
*sigh
im getting worried already.
im afraid i'd get knocked out on the 1st rd.
guess i'll just have to kill all my oponents.
cannot giv chance..
its kill or be killed.
wahahha ok ok im crapping already.
alright got nothing else to tell you all about actaully.
the rest are all exclusive.
whahahah
oh and one more thing..
I LOVE YOU VALERIE!!!
and not forgetting YOU too!!!
later!!!

-ter`

2005-02-15T22:46:00.000+08:00

i spent val's day with val at her place.just some pics we took while watching the tv.hahah love you vaL!!

happy valentine's day!!

2005-02-13T23:57:00.000+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY EVERYONE!

especially to YOU, vaL sandee daps and everyone else reading now!!
hahaha its the day for looovveee!!
hahah but y am i feelin no lovin?
hahha im kidding..
i know YOU love me the most.hahah
well for the past few days,
i've been doing nothing.had training today.
lucky my main coach didnt come,
or else he would've killed me
when he found out i was going for ivp in 2 weeks time.
hahah anyways i learnt alot of things today.
like how slow i did my counter kicks and stuff.
guess its time for intensive training already.
hahaa anyways im happy.
thats all that matters.
are YOU happy now??
cause if you're not i dont know how im ever gonna be.
hahah and you're most welcome sweetie.
and NO you havent been a pain in the ass la!
silly girl.
i understand..great minds think alike remember?
and stop copying me ah!
hahaha listening to clay aiken now.
no more sad songs!i'm lettin go now...
wah so powerful lyrics..
YOU!!better think about it...
but no matter what.
remember,
I'M ALWAYS BEHIND YOU!!! XD
anyways i've got a date with taekwondo training tmr.
and im dropping by val's after tt for a while..
for what you ask?
you really wanna know??
i dont know myself..
wahahah!!!
ok ok fine im crapping already.
anyways im not gonna let any other things affect me.
its sooo near to ivp..
no way am i gonna train so hard and screw it up man.
hell no.
wahaha
well recently i've been out with the guys.
just doing nothing.
chatting bout the latest street stuff.
oh and the kfc family meal tt costs $26,
there were 5 of us..
and we finished like 2 family sets.
wahahaa there was like 8 pieces of chicken,
large popcorn chicken,medium whipped potato,
and alot of other stuff.
after eating mark was like im gonna puke.
wahaha then we started making puking sounds.
and he was like eh eh pls im really gonna puke.
wahahah after tt went home.
im kinda enjoying myself man..hahah
so crappy man.
and i love chillin man.
sitting around somewhere quiet with friends,
chatting and spending time together.
wah so shiok.
ok i think im getting very long winded.
but i havent been updating you see..
no time la.
too caught up..
well..next week is weighing for ivp.
and the week after next is the competition already!!
omg its sooo close..
*sigh
nvm if im gonna win means im gonna win.
i need the experience man.
alright then.
i'll stop whining now. (is tt how you spell it??hahaha)
alright, this is me..Out!

-ter`

msg to YOU

2005-02-09T22:20:00.000+08:00

are YOU guessing y im not online?
ok this post is gonna be for you.
where the hell are YOU?!
anyways i got back at about 9+,
going hit my friend's place to chill till late.
not sure if i can get online at his place or not.
BUT! i'll try my best k?
i know you miss me..
but i miss you too!!!
hahah i cant help it la.
not happy is it?! XD
hahha anyways it'll be better if u can contact me on my cell.
oh wow u just msg-ed.
hahaah great minds think alike dont they?
hahah!!
call me!!!havent heard from you the whole day!!
ok i've gotta go now.
love YOU!!

-ter`

chinese new year eve

2005-02-09T01:12:00.000+08:00

went shopping with my retard partner today!
our dearest kerrie.
had a really long talk from 1.40 to about 5+,
haha i enjoyed myself!
so funny la.
anyways to all of you out there,
the last post was just one of my bad moods tts all.
no need to worry bout it.
im not always like tt la,
hahah but thanx for all ur concern man.
especially cher and YOU!
hahah ran into cher today,
she just walked up to me and pinched my face la.
so i just smiled at her and let her pinch my face.
then after she msg me,
she said i looked like a bung!!
and tt my face was damn oily.
of course la.
didnt touch my face for like an hr plus of course oily la.
idiot.
hahaha
anyways i had a great day today.
and im feeling very happy now.
i think my parents must think i'm crazy.
smiling to myself.
wahahaha and im always laughing.
dont know y also.
maybe someone might know.
hahhaa.
so today ran into like hell lotsa ppl in town la.
haha then walked pass andee,
he just had to giv me his fucked up face,
then he walked away without saying hi!!
so much for knowing him for 8 yrs.
haha then i called him and scolded him.
he was laughing at me la.
but nvm.
then went with him to buy spongebob boxers!!
yay!
they finally have them in S.hahha
anyways after tt met mike to go get his shirt and tee.
then we chilled outside cine for a while with his friend.
so funny.
she was so amazed by his magic tricks.
but she had a hard time trying to learn them.
hahah then had reunion dinner.
had went 3 rounds for food man!!
woohoo!
aiyah i didnt eat the whole day la pls.
and YOU didnt tell me u were hungry.
or i would've dragged you to scotts for beef noodles with me!!
my favourite!!
hahah anyways then came back and played xbox with my bro.
so here i am now.
cant wait to collect ang boas tmr!!
hahaha its the time of the year again!!
alrighty then.
i'll catch you later!!
see you!

-ter`

1st official IVP training

2005-02-08T01:22:00.000+08:00

today was practically the 1st official IVP training for me.
but it was kinda slack today.
only a hand full of ppl showed up.
well.at least my team mate ulrick was there.
but his knee injury was aggrevated again.
due to some inflammed ligament.
ouch.
seriously wonder how he's gonna do for ivp.
*sigh
i realised today tt i have a bunch of 'friends'
or whatever they like to call themselves.
i was just thinking abt it.
its like you all seem to nice to me to my face.
but when u all talk to me over the phone.
its obvious tt you dont treat me as a friend.
for your info i do.
and only when you're in need then u call me?
wtf is this man.
even if i was around.
i wouldnt bother thinking of lending you the cash man.
so just fuck off.
you're not worth is too.
i dont know y but i've been doing alot of self-realization
these few days.
guess i dont want my life to be a lie.
i dont want 'friends'
i want real, true and honest friends.
ppl who can tell me to my face what they do not like abt me,
and are wiliing to settle it with me.
come on man.
dont go on talking behind my back and all tt crap.
you're not tt good.
im not tt good either,
but im telling y'all openly tt im not happy.
not its your turn.
well.
ivp's gonna be on the 26th and 27th of feb.
tt means only abt 3 weeks of training.
im so dead.
my stamina's like shit.
guess its abt time i go back to my old club to train somemore.
i really need the training.
if not im wondering how im gonna do for the competition.
i really hope tt im gonna go there and get killed.
but to KILL.
worried worried.
anyways i was at sentosa on sat night all the way to sunday morning.
tt place is damn nice at night man.
was like just chilling with my mates on the beach.
watch them have friendly fights.
damn fun!
then took a cab all the way back from sentosa at about 2.
and slept after tt.
church was shitty.damn tired and all.
anyways met law and cheese after a millenium la.
haha.
they're still the same.
played pool for a while then went home already.
not in the mood to blog anymore.
my life's abit fucked.
im sorry.
i'll see you guys later.

-ter`

2005-02-07T00:22:00.000+08:00

and this is the normal print for the tee.wah damn cool...and the material's good!haha

2005-02-07T00:20:00.000+08:00

woohoo!got this new tee from collage! its a reversable tee!and this is the reversed side.nice?

friday 4/2

2005-02-05T01:20:00.000+08:00

4/2

just came home a while ago from mitchell's place.
and someone had to just had to msg me online to piss me off.
get the fuck away from me ok!
i dont appreciate you and your "anything"s,
so like get the fuck outta my life.
i think you're fucking blind,
fucking blind enough to not realise tt val was wearing heels.
heels tt were almost 2-3 inches high!
you blind fuck!
so what if i was at far east?
i dont wanna fucking see you at my fucking IVP ok.
im going there to win.
not to see you there to make up a scene and fuck up my matches.
fucking bitch.
just count yourself lucky that i didnt see you at far east.
cause i would've killed you,
undoubtly WITH the help of my best friend valerie.
and why didnt you walk up to say hi when u saw me?
afraid i'd do something to you?
you're absolutely right!
you think tt just because some guy threw himself at you,
you're oh so great and hot?
HAH!
guess what?
HELL NO ok!
the sight of you just disgusts me.
taking all those stupid pics of your fucked up face.
NO you're not cute.
i've got cuter friends.
and although its not all about looks,
my friends have way a way better attitude than you do ok.
so what if we've been through so much for the past year.
i dont care a fucking bit for you now.
you can die for all i care ok.
dont go around thinking that your heck care attitude is damn great,
and because of that you attract alot of guys.
im sorry but if you want guys.
rtiz carlton is totally the wrong place to look for rich guys,
cant you see the reason they're working?
because they're short of cash!
so dont think you're so great cause you've got ah bengs,
cheena poks and idiots going after you.
or maybe thats just you,
only idiots go after you.
and serves you right for being bitched about ok.
you deserve it.
think you're so pretty.
one word.GROTESQUE!
sad to say i was ONCE an idiot,
but i can proudly say tt im no longer one!
so just fuck off from the beautiful life im having now.
you think you're a player?
yah i agree with you.
you're a player of idiots and just making do with the FUGLY guys.
guess what.
they cant make it!(with compliments from ME!)
and he said you were a town kid?
no no no..
wanna see town kids?
check out my friends.
if it wasnt for the dress sense and tt nike sb dunk..
you're NOTHING.
just gonna stay the auntie tt you really are ok.
your sister is right.
she was always right.
thank God for her.
so dont go on thinking you're oh so high and shit ok.
i think i WAS very stupid,
the things i said to you..
i REGRET!
I REGRET everything i've given you.
there's definately someone more worthy of them!!
you're so not worthy of me.
so i advice you to do something.
FUCK OFF!!!
go fuck him in the arse for all i care.
let him fuck you for all i care.
cause i dont anymore.
the thought of you pisses me off.
you disgust me.

thank God again for my dearest:
1.YOU(you know who you are..XD)
2.val
3.daphne
4.everyone else that supported me and opposed you.
you all are treasured and loved greatly by yours truely..ME!!
and correction,
you werent my only one.
i realised how many friends i had after everything.
how much i forgot about them.
how impt they are to me.
you were just a TOTAL WASTE of my time.
i hate you..
get the fuck outta my life NOW!

sincerely written by terence.

-ter`

last day of tests.kerrie's pic!

2005-02-03T23:40:00.000+08:00

ok everyone!!!check out KERRIE LEE AH COW!! MY fellow retard.isn't she pretty?? XD

woohoo!!
today was like the last day of tests!!
yes like finally its all over!
after studying and staying home like a bloody caveman..
its all over!

ok today bca was shit.
as in totally screwed up the paper.
for starters i didnt even study.
like every single ques was bombed by me.
i guessed all of em.
some of them were common sense la.
so not tt bad.hahah
tts because someone was sad and down yesterday.
so being the nice nice NICE ME,
decided to talk to YOU instead of studying.
since i saw tt YOU were more impt than my stupid bca.
dont worry la YOU definately are.
trust me..
wahaha. XD
i hate Business Computing whatever la.

ahha so stupid la.
since when did they have some subject testing you on,
microsoft excel and access??
stupid right..
and we needed to know the formulas for excel.
WTF?!
one word..DUMB

dropped by val's to get her outta the hse to cut my hair with me.
ok i was there at 1.
and we left at 5.
and 3/4 of the time.i was getting to go shower.
til the point where i had to wrestle with her.
damn it she damn strong ok.
ok so to cut the story i short.
no matter how strong she was,
i still won la.wahhah

then after cutting my hair..came back to granny's,
from there mum brought us home.
and so im here doing nothing although tests are over.
omg and i was looking forward to it.
ok so now im patiently waiting for ppl to call me out.
if not then i'll stay at home and do nothing.
quite fun actually..hahah
alright then..its time i stop.
out!

-ter`

2005-02-03T23:31:00.000+08:00

ok i think i can join AH COW in being a retard too.

kidnapped by the old, frigid cow called valerie

2005-02-03T16:35:00.000+08:00

"terence has been kidnapped by me!" - val, proud of her achievement.

'why?' you ask. because:
1. he belongs to me
2. i can remove one more jack from the world - well deserved.
3. he wants to cut his hair
4. so i can cut it for him - he trusts me! really, he does! haa..
5. he belongs to me.

that's that. this is valerie. out.

Macroecons today.home day

2005-02-01T21:10:00.000+08:00

for some reason im damn tired today.
woke at 12+,
and it was because i had to collect my lunch from my dad.
and i walk all the way down still half asleep ok,
wanted to continue sleeping when i came back,
but my dad asked me to eat first.
so ended up watching taxi 3(the original french version)
and eating lunch at the same time.

came back up to my room then went online for a while,
before sleeping again at 4.
cant believe it,
slept til 6 plus.
still could continue sleeping ok!
but i had to go through my econs again in case i forget everything.

so here i am now..
and my msn i like screwing up on me.
so if YOU cant get me online..
tag!!
hahah i am online.but its my f'cked up msn.
dont know whats wrong.
shit i think im back to my underground heavy metal days again.
suddenly felt like listening to some real heavy metal.
like thrash music..haha
whats wrong with me!!??
so now slipknot's on my playlist.
shit.

anyways i havent started on BCA yet.
i'm dead.theres like almost the whole book to cover.
but the thing is tt no one knows what to study
wtf
and they always know ONLY at the last min.
WTF.
ok i think i'd better get back to my econs already.
GNP! GDP! CPI!
hahah ok im crazy..
later!

-ter`

tests day 1 POA

2005-02-01T14:30:00.000+08:00

today was day 1 of tests.
had POA.
yeah it was rather do-able.
cause i manged the sample paper quite well.
and this paper was almost exactly like the sample paper,
ogy was right after all.
guess this test i shld be able to make it?
i dont know.
no test tmr..
theres econs on wed and stupid BCA on thurs!!
tts my last paper!
yes!its all gonna be over in a jiffy.
cant wait.
kinda finished studying econs already.
BCA!gotta study the whole book la!
WTF?!

went down to go-sports to pick my new kicks
the auntie gave me a discount.lol
didnt even have to ask la.
aiyah i've known her for afew yrs already.

then went back to grandma's to rest.
grand-dad bought lunch for me.so nice..
oh and they were showing a program on the tsumani last yr,
then explain scientificlly how the tsunami was created and the vids of what happened.
stupid indians in sri-lanka la,
waited till the wave was like 10m away from them b4 they started running.
no wonder so many died.
nvm la they're just plain stupid.
hahah ok im being damn bad.
my day was damn boring!

and im feelin' damn bored now!!
argh!
shity mood.dont know y.
thanx to my dearest YOU.
can take my boring convs.
great minds think alike la..lol
hahah thanx for bailing on me last night la!!
:p
ok im just trying to create conflict here.
blah blah!
later! cant continue already.. :((

-ter`

rest day!

2005-01-29T19:38:00.000+08:00

i woke up quite late today.
daps called.she was in a bad mood.
tt stupid guy.he's not worth it ok!
there's still so many out there,
why him?!
you've still got me!! remember?! :0)
was supposed to study.but had to accompany her.
she was waiting for tt bastard with the terrible attitude to arrive.
after tt hurriedly finished umemployment for macroecons.

headed down to val's place.
stay there till 6.
had a great time catching up with you!!

then went to meet rach ash and wei chang at scotts.
i took a long time just looking at my shoes.
then they left.
went over to my friend's shop Parallel to chill for a while
before leaving for Jurong Point.

had gastric in the bus cause i missed lunch.
it was past 9 by the time i got onto the bus..
so i was like farting the whole trip to relieve the gastric pain. hahaha :p

later today i'll be going to play soccer with the guys down at fairfield.
havent played with them in ages!!
so decided i'll go down tmr.
guess i'll be hitting town after tt to pick up my new shoes for CNY!!

and YOU!!yes you know who you are!!
better make sure u try to contact me when u get back from KL ok!
have you bought the red top yet??
hahaha horny horny!!
its been 3 days already!!
and i know you miss me!!
but sadly..i miss you MORE!!!wahahah!!! XD
my late night studying sessions have been very boring.
no one to talk to.. :((
see i'm so nice ok.
dedicate 1 whole paragraph to you!!
better appreciate ah!
waiting to hear from you! :D

*sigh im getting very tired..
its about time i hit the sack now!
OUT!!

-ter`

visit to Go-Sports

2005-01-28T15:59:00.000+08:00

went to sch today in the afternoon,
had to clarify some doubts on accounts with my classmates.
somehow today was kinda boring,
wanted to go to Go-Sports to check out some DVS shoes
so before i left sch for go-sports.
i realised tt i didnt bring my ez-link with me!!
but i was sure i didnt leave it on my table
then i found out from the maid at my grandma's tt
i had left my ez-link in my pants
*sigh troublesome..
then dropped by grandma's on the way to go-sports to pick up my bro's ez-link.

oh and the uncle and auntie at Go-Sports still recognises me!!
maybe there were acting..wahaha i dont know.
yeah it was my home skating ground when i was in secondary sch la.
brings back good memories.
anyways i havent been there for about 2 yrs already.

later i accidentally kicked my bro on his thumb.
thought it was a fracture,
then realised it was just a blueblack.
stupid.false alarm!!hahaha
im going shopping with rach and whoever else tmr!!
gonna check out shoes.
gotta buy them for CNY la.haha
may be dropping by val's hse b4 tt..
got alot of catching up to do man.

-ter`

kerrie;*

2005-01-27T13:56:00.000+08:00

See.
Now you all know how much terence loves ME!
HAHA.
Such ego.
Anyway, ter screwed the previous template.
But being the super duper nice girl i am,
I did it again.
One more time ah,
I'm gonna have to charge you.
CHOCOLATES!
And it wasn't my fault you fell asleep after doing yer work!
Don't listen to him!
It was him who was talking to me.
And not vice versa..
Fine.
We were conversing.
So fair.
Hmms.
I had better stop hogging his blog.
Until next time,

___kerrie;*

first offical entry

2005-01-27T13:49:00.000+08:00

alright so here i am, finally im posting my first entry..
ok so first things first.
thanx to the GREAT Kerrie for helping me out with my template,
although i was darn choosy with the different templates and stuff
BUT she was still so damn patient with me..amazing
CHOCOLATES for you!!
hahah yah la you know i love you right!! XD
oh and i screwed up the blog once too
quite amazing she didnt get pissed off
cause my fingers were really damn itchy
then i was like playing around with the blog title and stuff
hahah =p
anyways i just got up about 1 hr ago from my nap
i was damn tired la.cant blame me for studying almost the whole day
while talking to kerrie online.see la you!!
all your fault! haha
yeah and i only ate like one piece of bread
the whole day.
and it was made by my mum!
listening to Dream Theatre now.
they're super good la.
anyways my day was kinda short and uninteresting today..guess it'll be like tt
for the rest of the week.
stupid study break and i hate accounts
so difficult.im like cracking my brains just to learn it myself.
so yeah still studying now
will be up late again tonight i guess.
alrighty then.its about time i go have my dinner and continue studying already.
catch you guys soon!!

-ter`

kerrie;*

2005-01-26T02:14:00.000+08:00

BOO!
kerrie here!
see, since i'm so nice, and did this template for terence,
i get the priviledge to post first!
haha.
hmms, first things first.
terence thinks he's got lotsa charm.
and ALL of the time, i'm made to agree with him.
but, i mean it 3/4 of the time.
BECAUSE, some one is absolutely obsessed with him.
besotted, in love.
whatever term you'd prefer.
so if that's not charm, i don't know WHAT is!
perhaps his itty bitty bit of hotness included.
i'm nice.
so i'm just talking bout him.
i think i shouldn't say so much.
cause after i post this, and terence reads this.
i think i'm dead.
HAHAHA.
but terence is lovable!
lol!
oh, before i post it,
i have to leave my BIG name.
so here goes:

loveme!
`kerrie;*